chance to change??

whoottt whoottt!!

kalau i bagi you peluang you nak?*2.29a.m/21/01/11

shit! what should i do? should i ??

ok. extremely hard to make decision kan?

according to my previous blog that i never love you back.

totally sick!

salah sapa? sapa yang nak bertanggungjawab.?

either me or you?

yeaahh. life is so complicated right??

my dad penah cakap:

"amy,selagi amy muda.selagi amy boleh rasa cinta.tak salah kalau amy bercinta.

tapi ayah nak pesan, kalau nak bercinta.please make sure that you can give all the women want.kalau setakat keluar berdating naik public transport.  sometime member hantar. duit pon ngam ngam. stop it. study sampai habis then baru cari the best women untuk amy ok?

be a gentleman.! "

kenapa ayah tak pesan dulu lagi?

kenapa dah after 7-8 month amy couple baru nak bagi tahu??

and kenapa aku tak terfikir mende ni awal awal ea?

ok dulu kepala pon fikir seronok nak bercinta kan??

sampai my mom plak cakap:

"amy. amy bercinta ibu tak halang. ibu suka. tapi tanggungjawab kat girlfriend,

mana tanggugjawab kat ALLAH? kat ibu ayah?kat adik beradik"??

ya ALLAH. selama aku couple, tanggungjawab aku kat dorang aku habis kan kat gf.

banyak aku berdosa kan? bila fikir fikir balik. betol jugak. agak tersentap jugak time tu.

phheewww =.="

ok.back to the sms.

seriously i want you back!

tipu la kalau i cakap yang i tak rindu you, tak sayang you kan?

tapi...let's the past be over.

i'm stick to my words."once we are break. i never try to feel the sweetest love back."

apa nak buat. dah ini takdir kita kan?haha.

be a professional ye sayang?? kita bukan tak boleh contact kan?

cuma tak semanis dulu laa.tp still contact and..why not we are going to be a good friends kan?
i nak cubit pipi kembong you boleh??tunggu laa nanti. you tido i curik2 cubit!

i will grip your head!then sekeh byk2 kali.hahaha.

take care. i'm always be there for you. 

i love you.

*hug and kiss*

i had to....

whoottt whoottt!!

*01.01.11*

the date point for everything.

i'm not blamed on you.

yeahh. x de sapa yang suka bermuka - muka kan??

tapi sory la kawan.i had to...

dengan apa yang ko dah buat kat aku.sume tu mainan aku.

cukup susah kita nak jaga hati orang.

tapi pernah ke orang jaga hati aku?

its ok.i wouldn't mind. for me, biar orang buat kita.jangan kita buat orang.

thanks and for your information. i'm feeling nothing kuar dengan kau.

tak ade ape aku nak banggakan.tak da apa perlu aku sukakan.

terpaksa jaga hati orang lain untuk keluar dengan orang yang kita tak suka??

sounds difficult right?but this is what i did and its successful.

never try forget what you did. i swear!

bukan aku pendendam. tapi sebahagian dari ciri - ciri aku.

if i say NO. it's supposed to be NO. full stops!

aku dah maafkan kau but it doesn't mean aku lupa segalanya.

please take note ok?

please do not piss me off because if you do, you have no idea what you are getting yourself into

cheerrss~

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lets start from the first.

sad sad sad.

i wouldn't mind if you take that decision.but please take your right way ok??

pheeww. semak kepala fikirkan masalah masalah yang ada kan??

yep.mungkin masalah itu kita sendiri yang create.

tapi i'm sure that kita tak kan lari dari masalah even masalah tu bukan dari kita sendiri.

thats are the true life.believe me.

siriously.i'm depressed + oppressed.

maybe i'm not in the love mood anymore.but who know?

flu + fever. datang pulak masalah memang buat kita sakit hati kan?

nothing was perfect.i terima apa je alasan u.

but not for me to close on you back. i maaf kan you and i minta maaf kat you.

tapi kalau dah semuanya aku kena terima orang gila boleh +++ gilaa.

cry? sory for that.bukan sebab aku ego.tapi sebab i have my own dignity.

susah kalau nak puas kan hati orang.

hati kita sapa nak jaga??

ok maybe i jaga hati you.tapi i pon tak perfect and i tau you pon penah jage hati i walaupon sekali.

kenapa susah untuk berterus terang? 

sedang kan tak ada perkara yang perlu dirahsiakan??

you and me.just an ordinary person.i know you well so no need to keep your secret without me.

aku letih dengan permainan dunia.

start from today,*4:11am/8 jan 2011 i will stop loving you.

let's start from the beginning.i know who am i.you know who i am.

no matter what are people say on our relation.

just keep your mouth shut.i will do it too.trust me.

because there's no specific reason for me to talk about our past.

you should leave your bad.not for me.but for your next couple.

yeah.kadang kadang terasa menyesal tapi on this situation,i promise that i would never be deplorable.

memang sayang nak tinggal kan after almost 2 years we cry,we laugh,we chat,we joke,we shy, we condemn,we eat,we prank,we call and etc. 

but i'm muslim and i trust that ALLAH almighty and just folow the flow.

i will always miss the time when i kiss your forehead.

*hug and kiss*




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mrs smith di CIPLAK???

whoottt whoottt!!hahahaaa

ntah macam mane aku terdetik nak buat entry ni.

terpikir time lunch tadi.actually mende ni dah lame fikir tp x terfikir lak nak buat entry.

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asal mesti nak tiru ape yang aku buat???

kenape mesti mrs smith jugakk???

dah tak de idea nak letak name lain???

i change my pokemon name on my phonebook since kami declare.

+/- kami dah almost 2 years couple and during that,aku mmg guna nama tu dalam phonebook aku.

tapi kenapa tiba tiba awek ko pon ko guna mrs smith walhal ko baru je couple.i mean aku lagi lame guna nick tu.??*apesal walhal lak ni?haha*

adoii. then buat buat x mengaku pulaaaa. its ok la kau nak gune tp asal tak nak mengakuu yang ko tiru aku??hahaha.anoying gile perangai kann??

aku tak kesah pon nak tiru sebab bukan sekali je ko tiru akuu an an an??

tp cuba la mengakuu.hahaha.

ko buat aku gelak sorang sorang laa.memang la penggunaan mrs smith tu public.thats why aku tak kesah ko nak guna nama tuu but please mengaku or better tak yah guna ok??

cheerrs~












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terlaksana ke x?

whoottt whoottt!!hahahaaa

 happy new yearr babee!

1st impression orang terhadap new year ->

azam!

bagi aku memang kelakar kalau nak cite pasal azam..

bukan ape. azam aku yang lepas lepas pon x terlaksana.

antara azam azam aku yang still pending --

nak buat novel cinta sendiri.*jiwang?? mampos ar.haha

nak jadi traveler.*tak telaksana sebab aku dapat sambung study

nak 3 pointer.*dapat walaupun 3 pointer sikettt je.

nak candle light dinner with nora danish.*tak kesah la dia bini org or what.

nak jadi seorang yang taat pada cinta.*tak menjadi sebab macam geli plak

so ape yang aku dah decide untuk azam tahun ni adalah 

laksanakan azam azam yang lepas!!

cheerss~~









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